New Year, Same Goals 

The new year is filled with aspirations of doing things better. More of this, less of that. But as I've thought about what it is I want to do differently in 2017, I actually find myself wanting  to do the opposite. Instead of striving for new goals and new aspirations, I want to stay persistent in pursuing the aspirations I've set for myself in the past. This is because goals take time. Progress takes work, more work than can be accomplished in a year's time. Things that are truly valuable must season. Especially those that have great implications. That being said Here's my list of continued reservations in 2017. 

1). Grow deeper in my relationship with God.(through bible study, meditation, and prayer) 
2). Do everything it takes to make my wife feel loved and valued above all other things. 
3). Leave a legacy to my kids that demonstrates I love God above all things. 
4). Create family rhythms that cultivate a heart for God. 
5). Serve my local church expecting nothing in return except joy. 
6). Become a full-time musician. 
7).  Be content if I don't become a full-time musician. 
8). Seek the well-being of the city I'm living in.  
9). Lose weight and eat healthy. 
10). Work hard in my current vocation with thankfulness and without complaining. 
11). Learn how to be present with the people I love. 
12). Read 2-3 books a month 
13). Give away access clothes and materials I don't need 
14.) Give money sacrificially. 
15). Take photographs every month

The distance between 

What do you do when what you’re doing isn’t what you love? A better question to ask is what do you do when what you’re doing isn’t what you feel called to do? You know, the one thing you feel like you were put on earth to do. That thing that if you just had it, you would be completely content and satisfied. I feel as though I’m there, stuck between my calling and a hard place. As I’ve planned out this journey toward being a full time musician, I feel that there are moments when I become overwhelmed by the sense of not being there yet. “This thing is taking too long”, and “I feel stuck” are constant conversations I’ve had with myself and my wife. I’ve also found myself questioning my calling,“Am I crazy for doing this?”. As I’ve prayed and sought advice on how to operate in the “in between” of calling the same thing keeps coming back to me, don’t neglect the journey.  My wife especially has been a huge source of encouragement in this area. She reminds me that the journey makes the destination worth while. She reminds me that the journey, it’s ups and downs and it detours, makes the best stories. And she reminds me that the journey makes me the person ready for the destination. Waiting is hard. Cultivation is hard. Patience is hard. But in a weird, kinda cool way, the journey actually turns out to be as fulfilling as the destination. The stories, the struggles, the joys, all of it is building a catalog of experiences that will bring as much joy as the destination. I may never become a full-time musician (although I pray that’s not the case) , but one thing I will do is fight to enjoy this journey wherever it leads me.

Summary

Collections of my soul.